#pov mothering.

I’ve been running on 4-5 hours of sleep for quite a few days already. I got a second dog and I was well aware of the amount of rest I would sacrifice for the first few months. I remember Penny’s, and her being my first dog - I think I almost got crazy then. I was crying because I wanted to rehome her, but also crying over the thought of getting rid of her. The puppy stage is no joke with obedience and potty training, and all the barking and biting. But, no one forced me to get another one so here I am swallowing it all in.

Despite the tiredness, my heart is full. The house may get pretty wild, but there’s a different kind of contentment and tranquility for most. I’ve turned to loving dogs so much since Penny and now I wonder - if I were a specific breed, what breed would I be?

I came to realize that if there were any dog that naturally wants to always “mother”, that would be me. Penny and Patchi have been teaching me a lot of things, and me getting Patchi proved how I long for roles that would allow me to nurture, take care, and wallow over another creature’s stubbornness that I have to shift.

Patchi is a handful, naturally a herder, and the nipping/biting already started + her being very very vocal. Penny, on the other hand, is naturally a retriever I guess? She likes getting me things, even unwanted ones, but most of the time Jc's socks. She's very sweet & affectionate, both of them are! But Penny likes people more and she definitely loves how everyone’s fond of her in return.

Realizing this, it now makes sense how I am with friends or acquaintances especially to those younger than me. I tend to preach and guide when I can - about travel, finances (no to overspending!), relationships. I’m the happiest when someone ends up following my advice, and butthurt when disregarded!

Patchi will eventually grow up and won't need much teaching. And I hope by then I get to mentor a human next, my own little one. But until then, we are happy with the blessing of now - a furdad, a furmom, a retriever and a corgi. 😊